Thursday, August 24, 2006

I'm tired

I haven't been sleeping well lately. Sometimes I'm too hot and sometimes I'm too cold. Sometimes I need a big pillow and sometimes I want a flatter pillow. Sometimes I'm having weird dreams, and sometimes I just toss and turn for no reason. I'm sure the bulk of my sleeping issues boil down to I have so many project to get done over the coming weeks for the wedding.

Of course it's all my fault. I'm completely pressured by the crushing weight of the wedding industry and I want certain details of the wedding to be unique and homemade, not cookie cutter and predictable. I know in the end I will be happy with how things turned out, it's just a long road to get there still. All of the project do however keep me from being too worried about those things that I am actually worried about (i.e., bawling at the ceremony because my dad says some sentimental thing RIGHT BEFORE walking me down the aisle, getting cake smashed in my face, because hey, wouldn't that be, no, no it wouldn't, and there being the tiniest bit of drama going on).

One more thing to take my mind of all of it is Chico. Last night we ended up taking him to the ER vet because he looked and was acting awful. After a very quickly spent $300, we found out he has the same exact condition he had back in April, which means more painkiller, antibiotics and giving him fluids underneath the skin (thank the Lord that I have Michael to do that part for me). Hopefully in a few days he'll be feeling better, but its scary and sad to see him that way.


Anonymous said...

That is so crazy...I've been meaning to email you & ask if you've been having wedding dreams...of the "not so pleasant" nature.

I had a dream the other night that we were trying to go to Ireland and Jay's passport was expired, but we were going to try it anyways. We had clearance to leave the country, but we had a bizarre layover is somewhere like Latvia and I was convinced we were going to get stuck there with no way out. Needless to say I told Jay to renew his passport when I woke up.

I also had another dream that it was my wedding day, but I was no more prepared than I am today and I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to figure out what everyone was supposed to eat (because I never got RSVP cards) nor had I sent out invitations, I only have favors for half the was a nightmare and I was running around trying to get all of it together before I had to be the bride at 2pm. Oh man.

Marisa said...

I don't know if your comments section works....

That poor cat - i hate to say it, but put him out of his misery. :( He must be miserable! Poor thing.